Saturday, September 25, 2010
♥ searching for happiness
dear god, please hear my prays everyday.please make me happy. please make my wish come true and please open her heart. she is ashamed of us. i just dont understand why. dear god, i wish she treats me like others. im not interfering her life. i dont ask for her money anymore. i did everything she wants me to do. but why is she still be unfair to me. sometimes she annoys me so much. nagging everyday. she is still my mum. i do treated her very good. like a good child. i wish to not cry everyday. i wish she could be the best mum like what i want. i want a mum who treats me like her child. i want her to be proud of who i am eventhough my school result isnt that good. she should encourage me alot. i love her very much but when she behave like this i felt hurt. i felt like suicide. i dont have friends. i meant girl friends.. im searching for someone. then i found muhamad syamrul elfy who is currently my bf. he made my life feel more useful. im glad i found him but he dont want me to hangout or goin out with my boy friends. therefore i dont have any friends. i only have him. he guides me back to life. the way i used to be before. his my happiness but mum doesnt want me to be friend with anyone. she made me suffer alot. i hope u will be like mum that give happiness always. i love you!
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